2020
Notes
Sunday 12 January 2020 - Saturday 18 January 2020
[Notebook: DB 84 Pam's Book]
Sunday 12 January 2020
[page 120]
Monday 13 January 2020
Now I am 75 and reliving 2019 to see if I achieved anything in my honours year. The plan is to go through my four essays and the thesis and see if there is anything there worth keeping, produced under the pressure of a failed effort to please my teachers.If I like what I have done I must defend it through the university 'grievance' procedure. If not just put it down to "experience" and move on. Of course I think I did better than they could tell, a matter of "narcissistic confirmation bias", but in any case it is a matter of consciousness, looking again at the output of my mind under stress to succeed. My poor results have upset me somewhat, perhaps because they were unexpected. In fact I could not really predict how the markers would react, [becasue] the market I was marked to was rather alien to me and I have a profound feeling that I am onto something new [to it].
[page 121]
In a way this rebuff is attractive because it shows that I am far from the beaten track which I know to be a failure, a sort of academic denial analogous to the climate denial that infests conservative culture in general, insofar as it is implicit in conservatism to reject and avoid change because their hope has a radiant past rather than a radiant future. So my plan is to produce a dossier containing my year's essays and my thesis, the critical evaluations by the markers and my crits of the crits. I am taking this very seriously, but it seems necessary because some aspects of life are serious, those misconceptions that lead to war. All this began in 1987 as a theory of peace and still defines the trajectory, we are looking for the geodesic in human space.
Potential is a consequence of entropy and infinite entropy corresponds to irresistible potential.
Tuesday 14 January 2020
Wednesday 15 January 2020
The key to my thesis is section 4.3.5, The Cantor Theorem.Here we see how to construct a transfinite network capable of addressing every quantum of action in the universe [and relating them to one another in space and time]. Prolegomenon to scientific theology: 4.3.5 The Cantor Theorem
