Notes
Sunday 30 July 2023 - Saturday 5 August
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Sunday 30 July 2023
Wishful thinking is a driver of our activity, in effect an actualization of Aristotle's final cause. As this diary records, it leads me to attempt an impossible task to overcome the two principal horrors of my youth, nuclear war (remember the nuclear winter) and the Roman Catholic Church (abuse of people at all scales, particularly children and women, by a militaristic patriarchy). The foundation of the Church's wealth (and ability to murder and abuse) has been the canny marketing of false hope (Heaven) and false horror (Hell). All my efforts are in effect attempts to erase my stupidity at falling completely for these lies. On the other hand, I got to know the inside story of the Church and fell in love with its most intellectual perpetrator, Thomas Aquinas. I now find myself trying to build a new picture of the universe on the starting point Aquinas inherited from Aristotle, the unmoved mover which I like to call
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the quantum initial singularity.
What is/was the source of antagonism between Russia, China and the US? Greed, rape, pillage, dominance, ego, all elements of evolutionary strategy. Why does cooperation often win? Because productivity is more powerful than destruction, so wars are won by the more productive economies.
My struggle is to write something I believe, something I can preach. I was 100% behind How Universal and being expelled from the Dominican Order has since become the best thing that ever happened to me, but it was followed by 20 years of nowhere until I did the 2BOB programs (1987) in which I discovered the transfinite numbers and put myself way out on a branch. Since then I have been trying to concoct a follow up 36 years later with the basic requirement that the universe is divine and therefore physics and theology must be consistent. This is still my struggle, I have a few ideas but I am in deep shit and can now see that it may take me the rest of my life to get out of it, but although I have painted myself into a corner I have deep confidence that it can be done and the sooner I can become comfortable with it the better for me and everybody. Then I hope nothing will compare to me. In other words I want to do something that gets me the Einstein / O'Connor effect [achievement in one field to carry my message in another]. I wish. Jeffrey Nicholls (1967): How Universal is the Universe?, Jeffrey Nicholls (1987): A Theory of Peace
I am and and always have been carrying a lot of grief for my lost childhood and for the effects of its horror and violence on my life.
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I find it hard to be myself, to show my feelings. To get to the joy I need to release the pain that is blocking me. If I do not do this I will not survive. I was angry before because I was frightened, but I know that if you could really listen you'd see that we do not know what we are doing when we mock the expression of human feeling and we scoff at the sound of our children's keening. This is a mirror into which we are not looking. There is no way I am going to shut my life. I am a battered child. Sinéad O'Connor / Kathryn Ferguson (Director): Nothing Compares( Documentary)
Child sexual abuse has been recognized. The time is coming closer to recognize that the child intellectual abuse being practised by non-scientific non-democratic autocratic clergy.
They tried to bury me. They didn't realize that I was a seed (O'Connnor).
The hope of achieving the Einstein O'Connor effect drives me on although I think my chances are slim, but I think that I have 20 years to make it work and I don't know of anyone else who is trying to do this. They took my voice away, but it is coming back slowly.
Monday 31 July 2023
Dirac with his relativistic wave equation for the electron was the first, as he put it, to wed quantum mechanics and relativity together. At first he thought that spin, the intrinsic angular momentum that the equation demanded, was the key, and that
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spin was the fundamental consequence of relativistic quantum mechanics. However the puzzle of negative energies that the equation presented when it was solved [Anderson] eventually showed that the crucial idea necessary to wed quantum mechanics and relativity together was the existence of antiparticles. . . . With the existence of antiparticles, though, pair production if a particle with an antiparticle becomes possible, or example with electrons and positrons. . . . the existence of particles and antiparticles enables us to ask a very simple question: if I make two pairs of electrons and positrons and I compare the amplitudes for when they annihilate directly and for when they exchange before they annihilate, why is there a minus sign?Carl D Anderson: The Positive Electron, Richard Feynman & Steven Weinberg (1986): Elementary Particles and the Laws of Physics: The 1986 Dirac Memorial Lectures
In his lectures on gravitation, Feynman speculated that the total energy of the universe may be zero, because the negative gravitational potential of the universe may offset the positive kinetic energy in the universe, making the total zero. But at no point have I seen anybody connect anti-particles and gravitation. If in fact the negative energy of the antiparticles was to totally offset the positive energy of the particles, we would expect the universe to be half particles and half antiparticles and very quickly annihilate itself, which is not the case. Antiparticles are rare and ephemeral and need to be specially produced.
These days the Dirac equation is discounted. Weinberg writes:[page 174: (turned over 2 pages)]
Dirac and & Weinberg page 108:
Dirac's great work on the theory of electrons was an attempt to unify quantum mechanics and special relativity by giving a relativistic generalization of the Schrödinger equation. I think today that that point of view is generally abandoned. These days most people think that you cannot unify special relativity and quantum mechanics except in the context of quantum field theory.
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Tuesday 1 August 2023
Newton's universe is a toy or puppet, a kinematic system driven by a god outside, rather like a Barbie doll which has no agency of its own whose activities are the product of the children driving it just as the kinematic version of mathematics is a formal toy driven by the minds of the mathematicians that work it. The big breakthrough of the twentieth century was to make a computer, a dynamic implementation of the kinematics of mathematics. This achievement was driven by the Manhattan project and all the other technologies that couple kinematic ideas to the dynamics of the universe to make things that work by partaking in the dynamics of the universe. The proper interpretation of this transformation is to see it as making the universe divine. The aim of this page is to couple the kinematics of relativity via the agency of quantum mechanics to the divine dynamics inherent in the initial singularity.
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Kinematic barbie did not need stairs, like a puppet she was carried around her world by the children who operated her. Real Barbie, on the other hand, had to exploit the dynamics of the world to achieve her aims, as we see here in the last line contemplating the transformation from toy to parenthood by visiting her gynocologist. The metaphysics of Barbenheimer. Barbie (film) - Wikipedia
Cognitive cosmogenesis - Babenheimer metaphysics
Let us see gravitation as the continuous background of the quantum initial singularity within which a Hilbert space is induced by fixed point theory in a manner analogous to the definition of clear and distinct ideas in s logically continuous (neural) network. Hilbert space and gravitation occupy the same set (space) and can open the way for the emergence of Minkowski space and the creation of a photon as soon as the first qubit comes into existence in the initial singularity. This is followed by more qubits observing one another to create massive fermions snd 4D Minkowski space which becomes gravitation in the context of a differentiable manifold. We just have to explain how all this works as the cognitive origin of both mathematics and the universe within the initial singularity under the 'pressure' of confinement by logical consistency (confinement). Good[page 174]
words which need to be coupled by a codec to a physical reality.
The universe is applied quantum computation, including Minkowski and gravitation.
Wednesday 2 August 2023
Today, at last, I feel that I can finish cc17_gravitation, seeing gravitation and quantum mechanics superposed in the quantum initial singularity. Gravitation, through the differentiable manifold, represents the continuous interior of the singularity [existing, like the traditional divinity, prior to space and time] bounded by the logical border between consistency and inconsistency. Quantum mechanics arises as the fixed points in the singularity which form the basis for Hilbert space which then goes on to give Minkowski space which bifurcates action into space and time through the peculiar metric which enables quantum superposition (contact) through null geodesics. Additive and subtractive quantum superpositions give us bosons and
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fermions which generate 4D Minkowski space which becomes the boundary tangent to general relativity. Then we move to the creation of a communication network within this system which ultimately leads us to the fundamental particles. (page 18: Network I: CooperationThis is achieved by the application of quantum computation which provides the communication between particulate sources in the network. This is a summary of the first section of cc17_ §1. In the beginning, an approximate poetic love story describing cosmic cosmogenesis, take 1. The entropy of this story is ultimately great enough to embrace both physics and theology in the same picture. Is it true? Why not, it is an hypothesis made possible by including the power of god in the birth of the universe, a first take on my lifelong dream that started in 1967 (ref above).
Mathematical concepts like counting are endowed with reality in human minds. computers and by the introduction of energy in reality. So can Cantor's theorems become real? Can quantum uncertainty create energy and so fuel the cosmological constant problem? Infinity and renormalization necessary to maintain the normalized statistics of a quantum source. So how do basis stated of a Hilbert space become real quanta of action - eg what makes a photon, a dose of energy from gravitation which is part of the physical reality of god the creator?.[page 176]
The statistics of quantum measurement decide which eigenvector / eigenvalue gets realized and made into a photon, just as a mental decision in a mating decides if two people will decide to reproduce together.
The continuous interior of the singularity is gravitation, somehow negative potential while the fixed points induced in the singularity are kinematic representations of Hilbert space which reach points of consistency (eigenfunctions) which are ready to accept energy from the gravitational continuum to become physical particles, in the first place photons which are identical to the basis vectors of the Hilbert space, giving dynamic reality to kinematic structures.
Thursday 3 August 2023
Here we are inside the initial singularity (where I have always been, in my old god) wondering how to describe what is happening. The process, as I am trying to understand it, is a matter of god
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observing itself, like in the Trinity, and the process is formally identical to every other instant of quantum observation and quantum creation of entropy in the universe from the beginning, the fundamental symmetric process of action. I need to express this in logical cognitive terms (since we are yet to enter spacetime, kinematics and dynamics) and see how it fits with page 14, the interface between Hilbert and Minkowski which is in effect the realization of both these spaces, given the real existence of the divine initial singularity as the starting point. God so understood is the basic input to every event, the quantum of action. One feature of this discussion is to illustrate the relationship between quantum mechanics and gravitation, assuming that the interior of the initial singularity has bifurcated into positive and negative kinematic processes (anti-processes, preserving the zero sum nature of action?) associated with the distinction of fixed points that give us quantum mechanics, and the continuum that gives us gravitation and potential, which is in effect the universe automatically creating itself through fixed point theory which demands a continuum and a convex bounded set. In other words, we might be saying that logical consistency is the formal potential that created the world and that divine consistency makes creation necessary.
Friday 4 August 2023
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[Confronted with the horrors of mortal sin and eternal hellfire I agreed with my] deeply catholic mother to "give my life to god" by joining the Dominican Order. I discovered there that this was a false god but it has taken me another fifty years to develop a new scientific theory that fits all the irrefutable facts, beginning with the quantum initial singularity, into a coherent statement of a scientific theology based upon the reality of god. I am slowly becoming proud of this achievement and learning to put it into a coherent set of convincing words to reveal it to the world at large. Now I can settle down to work steadily toward my goal without the panic motivated by nor really knowing where I am going and the tension created by trying to raise money to please a false lover. Can I recall the frame of mind in which I wrote and published How Universal is the Universe? The number of times I have been deceived is disappointing but also somewhat enlightening and I am getting quite excited about how fat I have managed to move away from the standard theology and physics in my efforts to unite these two subjects.
Vita and Virginia: Orlando Vita & Virginia - WikipediaOrlando (film) - Wikipedia>
From Yahweh to the initial singularity
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Saturday 5 January 2023
My crusade against the Roman Catholic Church occasionally bores me to tears as I find myself writing the same things over and over again but the job is not all bad. Every repetition is slightly different, if not in words, at least in context and the cumulative effect of this slow polishing since I enteredf the theology industry in 1963 has yielded an exciting vision of the relationship between physics and theology. Since I began studying philosophy at the University of Adelaide in 2018 this has gone through a few editions, beginning with my 2019 honours thesis and now slowly taking new shape on my website cognitive cosmology which has been in the works since I found I could make no further progress at the university and must resort to working alone. This site is far from finished but I have enough in hand now to begin writing a summary to publish as a book whose working title has become cognitive cosmogenesis: a systematic integration if theology and physics which hopefully will yield enough excitement to keep my nose to the rindstone and provide an independent view of cognitive cosmology which may help me to finally finish the website. Jeffrey Nicholls (2019): A prolegomenon to scientific theology
A good days work, editef the introduction to cognitive cosmogensius, coded it for the web and attached the references and cleaned up the cognitive cosmogenesis website to receive transcriptions
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of the book as it emerges. Now thinking abut the content of chapter 1, maybe a discussion about the difference between faith and science and the universality of the universe made possible by its random inpout and evolutionary selection. Maybe also a summary of principle up front, derived from cogntive cosmology. So now knock off.
This chapter squeeze as much juice as possible out of the Catholic connection via Aristotle, Aquinas and action and the Trinity as I have done in cognitive cosmology so as to more or less seamlessly dive from Catholic theology into quantum theory via the quantum creation of entropy from gravitation by building structure and the potential well at the same time, learning from the zero energy universe. Looking for a paradigm change, getting back to the moment when god ≡ singularity.