Notes
[Sunday 19 June 2011 - Saturday 25 June 2011]
[Notebook: DB 71 Israel]
[page 22]
Sunday 19 June 2011
Today I have that creative morning feel that has been missing for a while (went when these notes began to thin out). I 'dried up' at least in text, but in that period with a help of a little travel I gained new confidence in natural religion and am now fully engaged in developing the suite of websites that go with it.
Sun topped the trees at 8.20. The longest night is nigh.
My early sensual and sexual experiences convinced me that there was heaven outside the monastic constraints, but it has taken me a long time to be at home with the feeling after my earlier indoctrination that such things were evil.
Many of life's challenges (like births and deaths) are difficult to face along but become easier with company and custom.
Peers meet.
The thing I love about you is that every time we meet I love you more. Love cannot be measured but it can be ordered by more or less, and the ordering parameter is time, love growing, fading or remaining constant at ordered steps in time, meetings physical or mental.
I believe in myself at last, quite an achievement for an ex convinced Catholic.
The whole of the Catholic story is designed to disempower the individual.
Israel's problem seems to be rooted in its arrogant and foolish God,
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Mathematically we have a state space and an algorithm for predicting the occupancy of those states. Where there is no algorithm we have equiprobability, symmetry, like the outcome of trials with a fair coin or die (2d, 3d). The problem is to find the places where the symmetry is broken and find the algorithm that breaks to symmetry, assuming, of course, that a broken symmetry points to an algorithm.
NETWORK (= COMPUTER) = {NETWORK, PROCESS}
and we predict that the messages (which are the observable feature of the network) are the stationary points of the process. The wave paradigm finds stationary points at the integral and half integral multiples of the wavelength, so the organ pipe and musical instruments and vibrations in general.
Now I am facing the perils of old age I begin to understand the value of sense of humour, taking advantage of the headroom to deal with impossible situations.
